I think I have been loosely promising myself to look into the possibility of trying out full-time in about 12 months when I have settled into a new job by then. But there’s no way that’s going to happen at this rate. It was likely a rush before to achieve in this time frame, but now quite unlikely unless I resume going out again.

Maybe I am doing what I have been told I shouldn’t – trying to make plans and beating myself up when I don’t follow them. I probably just need to forget that and just get on with things.